I don’t want to play anymore

One of my favourite phrases, which anyone who knows me will understand. It’s the childish way of saying “I’m done” out of frustration. Today, I don’t want to play ‘trainee writer’ anymore, and by that I mean, after enough failed attempts at forcing myself to do the 30 Day Creative Writing Challenge, I’ve decided not to continue. It wasn’t enjoyable to me and every time I logged onto my blog I was very aware that I hadn’t done a single one in months. Now before everyone panics and thinks, “Oh no, if she doesn’t find that enjoyable she must not be a writer,” that is not the case.
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What I don’t enjoy are forced prompts that I have no interest in or care for the outcome. Some I found intriguing and perhaps in time I could have written those, but others I just found boring or had no idea where to start. Even in my job as a wedding writer, I find articles to write on a daily basis. Sandpweddings.ie is updated with new daily and I have to constantly brainstorm new ideas for the months ahead and then write several. Some are more interesting than others and come easily to me, others I find myself moving down the list as I procrastinate with more interesting ones. That doesn’t mean what I’m putting off isn’t interesting, it just means, for whatever reason, it has cast a cloud and is now looming because I’ve put it off for too long. It has become something I dread, even though it’s really not that difficult to write. There’s just something about not knowing where to start that can make it difficult. I suffer badly from Blank Page Syndrome so that’s always been a struggle whether it’s an article, a short story, an assignment or a book.

But the main reason I’ve decided to throw in the towel on the creative writing challenge and more importantly that it’s okay to throw in the towel, is because I’ve decided to take a running jump off the cliff and write that book that I’ve been going on about for an amount of time I do not wish to disclose. I don’t like telling people that I’m actually starting for fear it’ll prompt questions about what it’s about and how is it coming along, and I prefer to do things under cover of darkness and shadow until I can be sure I’ve come out with something good. However, I’m shedding light on my actions this time because I believe if the friends and perfect strangers that follow my blog know about the book (along with my fears) it’ll put just the right amount of pressure on me to actually commit to my plan.

So there you have it. I’ve decided to abandon the creative writing challenge in favour of something I really care about writing. I will continue to update this blog as promised, with other ramblings, rants and random observations of my life and if I feel like it, I’ll include the odd update on my progress, though I can assure you, it will definitely be vague. And now for one of my favourite “quittings”. Just replace ‘Alaska Cannabis Club’ with ‘my book’ and replace her reporting job with the Creative Writing Challenge.

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The reading tag

Hi, it’s me…yeah I know it’s been a while…

I was tagged to do a blog post by Aoife over at Pretty Purple Polka Dots to do a reading-related Q&A about two months ago. She even asked me before she tagged me because my blog had been left so abandoned and I said, yes I really need to get back to blogging, do tag me, I’ll do it. Well here I am, but not as soon as I probably should have.

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The Goodreads tag

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Yes, another post about books. But it’s been one full month since I bought my last book and I got one for free and they were both part of the series I will shortly be moving on to. Meanwhile, my Goodreads account is quickly expanding, and I found this post on Pretty Purple Polka Dots so decided to, once again shamelessly plagiarise borrow it for my own blog.

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Bibliophilsm – yes, there’s a word for my addiction; I looked it up

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OK so the first step to solving any problem is recognising you have one. My name is Jenny and I’m a Bibliophile, or book-aholic. I’ve always had a fondness for books and reading. My granny always impressed upon me the importance of reading, anything and everything, just always read. I always did read when I was younger. Harry Potter was of course, a shelf staple, and I read most of the Jacqueline Wilson books. But then when I got older and actually had to start studying for that Leaving Cert. thing, I ran out of time for books. I also developed a fondness for computer games and I went out socialising a lot more so I had even less time on my hands and my free time was taken up with other activities. In previous New Year’s posts from 2012 and 2013, you will see a failed attempt at forcing myself back into reading, and a successful one respectively. I didn’t read one book a month in 2013, but I ended up reading 16 books in the last five months of the year. I was back in all my bibliophilic glory.

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New year, same me with added determination

Happy New Year everyone! This year for a change I’m going to actually write my resolutions at the start of the year like a normal person. I know what you’re thinking. “Jenny, why do you keep doing this, it’s embarrassing and nearly always ends in failure.” In a way, yes it does. I rarely complete the list but I always make an attempt and any achievement is good right?

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Besides, I achieved other things that weren’t exactly in my control so wouldn’t have gone into a list like this. So, as usual, here’s my evaluation of how I got on in 2013:

Practise shorthand – fail

Read one book a month – done (as long as that’s just an average, I read 16 in five months)

Pass my driving test – fail (didn’t fail the test, just didn’t do the test)

Maintain my blog better – done

Go for a walk once a week – fail

Write everyday – done

Brainstorm – fell down around April

Work through Ready, Set, Novel! – fell down in December

Do 30 Day Creative Writing Challenge – fail, but ongoing

Work through Writing Fiction, Step by Step – fail

Some of them you might know as mid-2013 writing resolutions. Once again, could be better, could be worse. Onwards and upwards so here are my 2014 resolutions.

Shorthand – exact same goal as last year because I only failed from laziness. One day a week, adding a day for every month.

Read 24 books – That averages as two books per month but it’s not limited.

Pass my driving test – I’m determined to pass in 2014. End of story.

Continue to better my blog.

Brainstorm ideas for work, writing, blogging and freelancing once a week.

Finish Ready, Set, Novel! and start my own novel.

Finish “30-Day” Creative Writing Challenge – not necessarily in 30 days, but I have to complete all challenges.

Do The Artist’s Way – Again, I’m determined!

Learn Spanish again – I’m even going to do a course for this one.

Wish me luck, and let me know what your resolutions are.

I am failing, but I’ve decided that’s ok

Not in life, obviously. I wouldn’t be so calm about things if I was failing at life. No, I am referring to my very feeble attempt at the 30 Day Creative Writing Challenge for November. Look, what did you guys expect, I can’t even finish the cleanout to end all cleanouts in my room. But in my defence, I spent the first week of November graduating and participating in the general merriment that surrounds said event.

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CREATIVE WRITING CHALLENGE: Day 2 – Yes I know it’s late

Feeling in a sci-fi mood, my fanfiction challenge will be based on Buffy the Vampire Slayer after the final season. *May contain spoilers*

Day 2: Write a fanfiction

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“Kennedy can you get me some water?” Willow barely got the last word out before she landed on the ground of her and Kennedy’s apartment. She heard the rush of feet and knew Kennedy was already beside her. She could hear her voice too, but it was coming in and out.

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